House-sitting

Well, I am on day 3 of 4 for house-sitting for my youth ministry professor. He and his wife headed away for the Winter Break, so I decided that sitting at their house doing close-to-nothing was just as good as sitting at my Aunt's house and doing close-to-nothing.

I had an amazing few days with Woman. I cannot imagine anyone else fitting so well into my life. She is the biggest blessing I have in my life. I thank God for her every night and every morning.

Monday starts school, with 68 calendar days to go until we graduate. It is kind of scary, kind of exciting, and kind of too long. I just want May 9 to be here, but I know when it is I am going to look back and think of all the things I never got to do. But, when times like that pop up, I always remember some sage words from my high school wrestling coach: "You have to give up hope for a better yesterday."

Not much else. I was just bored and decided to blog. I think I am going to try and find some lunch and then play some poker for a bit.

*insert catchy title here*

Well, this morning was my job interview. It went quite well. I learned a lot about the position and got to know the Field Director for this area. I gave him my resume and he is sending me an application. All-in-all a very good day!

I got back to Grayson and spent the rest of the day with the Woman. We got to hang out, I got to ramble about my interview, and we generally had a good time. We went out to late-lunch, then to the mall. Finally, we ended the evening with an on-campus concert by Taylor Mason, a comedian. He was very funny.

I really love the woman. Just wanted to throw that out there.

This next week is short since winter break is Thursday and Friday. Woman and I are spending time Wednesday, and then I am house-sitting for a professor the rest of the weekend.

Not much else exciting. I need to pick my room up tomorrow so I do not have to live in filth. Other than that, I just keep praying God pulls me through the door he seems to be opening.

Wherein I do something constructive...

...or not too much.

Life is actually pretty good. I just keep getting really frustrated with people and things. I feel like everyone I speak to is upset with me about something and I feel like all of my work is slipping past my radar into the "overdue" file. It is just very very frustrating. I just want to get through this semester, graduate, get a job, and get married...is that so much to ask?

Senioritis is kicking me hard in the rear end...and most days in the face, too. Video games and sitting idly online are taking the places of papers and reading. Blogging replaces essays. Sitting and staring at the wall has become my brainstorming...just with much less brain and very little storm.

Hopefully Winter Break will help re-motivate me. Hopefully I will remember to send emails and call home and not do things to upset people. Hopefully I will not have to wake up at 6:45 gasping that I forgot to type up a paper, which I frantically assemble in hopes of passing (only to find out it is not due until next week...). I just need to make it to 9AM on Wednesday, then I am free for four whole days...

I love the Woman. We spent a fair amount of time just being in each other's presence last night. Nothing exciting, nothing special, just hanging out and goofing off and being together. It was quite wonderful.

Well...I need to make a phone call and repack my backpack and probably accomplish something before lunch. Toodles for now!

Flustration

Yeah, I said it.

I am frustrated...flustered...anxious...and tired. Today has caught up with me really damn quick, and I am not really sure why. People have been getting on my nerves and motivation has not been at the forefront of my mind. I am not really sure why all this is happening, but I have my theories...

I love listening to iTunes and having this random amazing song pop up and speak to my soul. The hope makes all the non-soul-speaking music worth listening to. Random, yes, but just throwing it out there.

I have a meeting with one of my profs in a bit, then I am sitting down for some me time. Reading, writing, video gaming, napping...I am undecided as of yet. I would like to get the song I started earlier this week done, and to get some of my other songs/poems conglomerated into a portfolio that may or may not land me some contracted writing for someone or something.

I love the Woman. Greatly. She is the best thing in my life.


Even when we fight my love does not falter in any way. I cannot wait to be married to her and to spend everyday of my life with her. She makes parts of my heart burn with happiness and passion that I never thought would be alive again. She is such a blessing to me, and I thank God for her everyday.

Well...I am gonna' head to my meeting early. Only because it means "me time" starts sooner.

At the tone, your life will be...good.

Life is amazing. I have a beautiful girl who loves me. I have a career-field that is looking up. I have family who loves me and makes me laugh. I have good music to listen to. I have food in my tummy and a warm bed to sleep in.

Woman has been in my life for about 5.5 months now. And she is quite spectacular. She fights for my happiness, she tolerates my peculiarities (which many call atrocities), and we get along really well. There is no control or power in our relationship...there is a team. We both are willing to concede and sacrifice for the other to be happy, and we both give our honest opinion on decisions. I love her with all my heart.

On other news: I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW WEDNESDAY!!! It is quite amazing. Prayer requested for all things involved with me getting a paycheck.

I have been writing a lot more recently...songs and poetry, mostly. I just wish I could finish a friggin' song once in awhile...oh well, eventually I shall finish something.

I cannot wait for the future...but I have been trying to slow down and focus on the present, because it is so beautiful. I am off to bed for now.

*tone*